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Lettre particulière...
Lundi 19 Janvier 2004 à 23h59
J'ai écrit ceci à Kat...j'espère beaucoup....trop surement :
Gutten Tag Katharina,
The reason why you didn't talk to me this week-end is simple and complicated too.
I have allways been honest with you, and I think you did the same with me (well...kind of, because sometimes it is better to lye, for everybody).
So that is why I send you this e-mail very important.
Two days ago we were on MSN...and to be honnest I really enjoyed talking to you, and laughing with you.
It was really nice....but when you left MSN I felt bad and really sad.
I have started thinking of you a lot and a lot...you are in my mind, and I am suffering about that.
I still have love and feelings for you....and I can't explain why !
May be it is because you were there with me at a really awfull period of my life, and because, somewhere in my mind you represent my mother.
Or may be it is because I just love you with your qualities and your defects !
I wish I could be with you and spend more time with you (I don't know if you have the same wish, but I hope so, if I understand well what you have written for me on a piece of paper in Lanzarotte....which one I allways keep with me), but now it is not possible, unfortunately.
So as I don't want to suffer again....I prefer not be with you on MSN....not yet...
That does not mean I want to stop everything with you !
I hope you have the same feelings for me (even if you told me you didn't love me or didn't feel anything for me).
I will do my best to give news (in french) on my website : http://*******.fr (available the 8th of February)
Like this you will be able to "follow" me in Australia (if you want).
I love you
Olivier
PS : Please, don't forget my birthday.....the 31st of March (easy to remember, it is the last day of March ) . :D
